originally posted July, 2018 by Caryn MacGrandle
My Goddess does not have perky breasts, thrust up and held up by an underwire. She is large, maternal, dark and free.
My Goddess does not wear tiny shorts, a sexy top and shimmer and shake for your benefit. She is naked and moves with confidence and power: secure in her beauty despite her scars, gray hair and imperfections, symbols of wisdom gained over the years.
Listen up, men. My Goddess is not here for you and your service and amusement. But accepting her and treating her as your equal will bring you more true strength than you have ever known before.
My Goddess brings balance. For all the years of being told we were made in God’s image, we find that God is a shapeshifter: sometimes brown, sometimes black, skinny, fat, young, old, female, male.
She is found in every single living thing: the tree in my backyard, the river rushing down a mountain, the mourning dove cooing, and the vulture feeding on the side of the road.
For my God is not all light and love and pink fluff, my Goddess is cyclical, bringing change, allowing opposites, realizing without one thing we never have another. Joy and sadness. Light and dark. Cold and warm. Night and day. Death and birth.
My feminine has nothing to do with Barbie and unattainable measurements. My feminine is raw. My feminine screams and rages then laughs and cries. She holds her Children and cares for them, but also lets them know when they have gone too far.
My Goddess walked beside Jesus Christ, watched him give His life so that we all may have life and then said, ‘I do that every day.’
My Goddess can be found in those mega churches filled with ‘Our Father’s’ and ‘Him’s’ and ‘His’. Feel her there. She is looking over His shoulder with a slightly amused smile on her lips that says ‘I am here, too’.
But she is better found under a full moon, sitting in a small Circle with candles, softly singing and drumming her Heartbeat.
You may have been told that you were ‘too sensitive’. My Goddess tells me that sensitivity brings Life. She takes me to another world, the blood coursing through my head filled with assurance that She is there: healing me, blessing me, supporting me.
I go inside myself to find my Goddess. She is not found on a pulpit teaching. She teaches from the inside out. When you sit in silence in the dark. When you start to listen to the divinity found within yourself.
And that fills the world with fear: anarchy, chaos. Where would we be without structure, discipline and leaders?
My Goddess is not saying that she is better than your God or that all would be well if the past couple thousand years had followed a matriarchal route instead of a patriarchal. She is saying She is needed.
She is saying Now is the Time.
Join us for a small, casual Circle 4-6pm (please be on time). Bring snack to share, something for the altar, drum or noise makers, an open mind and much love, Caryn, creator of the divine feminine app.
